Hanging On...So Contagiously

I just...need to write today. Without a plan, without a link, without indignation or amusement at something I've read in my daily internet musings.

The weather is sunny today. Not a cloud in the sky. It does not match my mood...or the weather forecast, which calls for thunderstorms. I must keep an eye and an ear open, and be prepared to run out and put the roof on the car. I'm listless and grumpy. Ok, I confess, I'm having a tough time adjusting, and it's only been a few days. I miss Barry. I miss having him here to share my days, to give me a hug when my day is stressful or to simply listen when I need to talk something out. The phone and the internet are not the same.

I know it will get better. Yesterday I was simply exhausted and overcome with the stress of a not-so-wonderful work day. Once my gym membership starts and my class begins...actually, who am I kidding? I have no excuses. I simply was lazy yesterday and nursing a feel-sorry-for-myself mentality. Do I want three months of that? Do I want any more than a few hours of that? Absolutely not. I think it's more of a listlessness, a wondering what to do with myself...combined with a supreme energy drop when I get home from work.

Entonces...I need to combat that energy drop, preferibly with exercise but, let's face it, I'm not going to go to the gym every day after work, and I'm not allowed to go this week (membership doesn't start until 22nd). So I'll allow myself a few mintues of spacing out, of TV watching or silly book reading or something like that. Then it's experimenting with my cooking, watching a new movie, reading one of my new, quite thick books, writing my band bios...anything that makes me feel as though I'm doing something more than getting by from day to day. Cause that's how I feel right now. Comfortable in the job, comfortable getting around in Starkville. Nothing is new, nothing is different except that Barry is gone for a few months. It's time to create my own newness because otherwise I'll get bored again, and then who knows where I might run off to next?

Taking a cue from my aunt...I think it's time to note the positives:
*The sunny, not stormy day beckoning me from my up-on-high window
*Birthday being very very soon
*Getting to drive around with the roof off
*Having friends at work to go to lunch with and take a break to chat with
*Less traffic, less people in Starkville
*Being thisclose to being able to register for classes (Food and Culture, I'm thinking)
*An official invitation to be a bridesmaid in Ireland! Next July!
*Finally giving myself permission to break into The Historian, which I've been putting off as I hear it's one that you can't put down
*Having a cell that doesn't give me static every time I use it
*Going shopping this weekend for Florida clothes
*Haircut scheduled for Friday

See...yesterday was just a monday. Hate it when that happens.

Just one news thing...of course we're taking Libya off the "terror" list. They have oil...how else can we fill our Hummers?
I'm back in the game!