It occurred to me at once
That love could be a great illusion
That makes fools of brilliant thinkers everyday
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about this verb “love” in the past month. I thought I knew what it was—I thought it was all so simple. But I realize, more and more, that I’m hanging on to the idea of “relationship” rather than “love.” Yes, it’s good to have a commitment, and I realize that not every moment in a relationship is meant to be warm and fuzzy.
But I’m coming to terms with some of the things that people have told me over the past three years. That this is my first serious relationship. That maybe I’m trying too hard. That it seems as though my confidence has decreased over the past couple years. That maybe it’s not supposed to be so much…work.
Willing to be silly
Traveler
Loves music
Reader
Fits with the crazy humor of my family
Liberal mindset
Can say “I love you”
Loves his family
Interested in international affairs
Encourages me to write
Encourages me to dream
Wants to live in my beach castle by the waves
4 comments:
marry me, kirsten!
Actually, Emily, you'd probably fit with the fam...except we already have an Emily and an Emma. So that could be a problem...
When you say you'll do a real person post soon you mean it.
This is such a hard place to be. It is such a huge grown up thing to have to do. Making a choice like the one you face is HUGE!
Know that we love you and are proud of you, and that we believe in you 1000%.
I would love to hear more about what you're saying here. You can call me sometime if you'd like.
All I know is you'll know if you want it to be a love forever when you can't imagine planning the future without him...and you're open to adjusting future goals to be with him. I don't write that glibly, I remember how hard it was for me.
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