Jazzfest weekend this weekend. I guess I should feel more excited as I've been looking forward to this for quite awhile, but I really don't like events that I can't control. And when I am confused as to the best way to transport myself there, and then get there and it's packed, and I hear that there is no shade and I don't have contacts so I can't wear sunglasses...I don't know, it's just concerning me a little bit. I'm sure it'll be fun but right now I would just like to crawl into bed and sleep.
However, I have learned that you just don't do this in New Orleans. They call NYC the city that never sleeps, but I'm sure that NOLA can put in for the title. When I read about New York, it's always people going for drinks, going to a play, that sort of thing...here it's about street food and leisurely restaurants and free festivals. And I can't say no to free.
I'm working on being a social person. Although my Meyers-Briggs is ENFP and my father insists that it should stay an E and it probably won't change, I often don't feel like an extrovert. Ok, let me refine that statement. I am an extrovert on my own terms. My idea of a fun time would be to have people over to drink coffee and read books and be together--but together and quiet, or together with a purpose. That's why I liked the Alder Street house in college so much. I could just go crash there and be around people, but not feel compelled to make a plan. I guess what I don't like is the slight social anxiety that gets me when I'm with a big crowd. What if I don't know what to do or where to go? What if I want to leave? I'm really trying to move past my natural tendencies toward anxiety...it's a tough task though. My mind has trouble being at peace.
So yes. Trying to be a social person. Accepting invitations. Pushing myself to move beyond my comfort level. Living up to my "E."
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You can't fight being an "E". I know that for sure. Uncle Jeffy is an "I" although at times he acts like an "E". The verse in Philippians 4: 8 says to focus or think on what it true and praiseworthy. So, Jeff and I ask each other, "Is this situation something we know to be true, or are we making it up in our heads?" "Focus on what is true," we say to each other.
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